Luv IS a JiGsAw PUzZle, haRd to piEcE toGEtHeR

2006-10-23T23:20:00.000-07:00

im sick of putting on a fake smile everyday. pretending to be happy when im not. maybe one day when i die, noone will notice that im gone after all. and here i am, desperately tryng to push all the negative thoughts to the back of mind. and shutting them. but that dark room, will still be open one day, no matter how hard i will try. and when it does, maybe i will just give up, give up trying to hang on to life. because im tired. and sick of life. life is meaningless. all the laughter, tears will be gone someday, when we die. i just dun wna hang on anymore, maybe it is time to let go. im sick of smiling and laughing, when deep down, i know that there is nth to laugh and smile about. im really tired of putting on a mask.

- im barely hanging on

2006-10-17T04:40:00.000-07:00

im sick and tired of life. i really am. im barely hanging on.

2006-10-16T06:11:00.000-07:00

todae went to sch for cadmus match and cadmus won! after match walok one BIG round to mac. its like. y cnt open the hostel? den went to mac. sian. den went j8. sian. den in the end no trng because of the haze. than went hme. sian. nth to do one lor. evrytime oso like that. sian.

-你令我太失望了

2006-10-13T22:47:00.000-07:00

i am so sick of life.

2006-10-10T02:57:00.000-07:00

its been ages since im blogging. so i shall post now. todae gt chinese riddle in auditorium. den i keep on sneezing and i was cao sleepy lor. wd is so interesting abt riddles la. den all the chinese so cheem i dun even understand a single thing lor. zzz. and since i dun understand anything i was damn sleepy. after tad went to find ms tan for cip hrs. and i hate my com nw. it have overtype mode. and i dno how to change it. ARGH. after sch went bugis to get present with alyson and char than awaes kena dian by he two of dem. pain sia. den reach hme lor. sian. no trak trng again. i wna go lehs. mon and wed oso dun hav. zzz. i going to rot liaos.

-珍惜每一刻，每一秒。不然就太迟了。

2006-09-28T22:42:00.000-07:00

maybe, one day, things will change.
no longer a lingering shadow,
walking behind at a certain range.

maybe, one day, tears won't fall,
because there is nothing,
for me at all.

maybe, one day, i wont be there,
crouching in a corner,
wondering the next place i will be is where
. maybe, one day, i can smile,
no longer troubled,
just a happy person, all the while.

2006-09-13T06:34:00.000-07:00

im postin after a loong time. have been piled wth a lot of hw. and i hate EOYs. dun think i gna mak it. i gt vry lousy mrks for my science overall. think i gna fail it. nw struggling to revise EVERYTHING. i dun wna repeat year 1. i tta revise and work my brain out. and i juz relise tad im HORRIBLE at science. i revised in the library for one hr i think and only managed to revise THREE chaps. and there's still SO many subjects to go. and i juz completed history essay. im so piled up. and i realise tad chekin of dictionary does nt help. i chek 4 my chi ws and didn't pass. nxt time i shan't chek, its pointless. URGH. i hate studyin. and im so stresssed. todae had arts. m,y drawin is horrible. and than hav chinese. and we made a bet on whther cher will be late for mre den ten min. and than science. and i dun understand evry single thing. only a bit. urgh. im so gna flunk my science. and there was math. and its BORING. =x but the cher quite nice actually. went to library and revise. den wanted to go hme le. den ended up plaein basketball. and im horrible at it. ahh! so stressed!

2006-08-31T09:12:00.000-07:00

i hav nt blog 4 a VERY VERY long time. dun kill me. =p hahas. todae was a vry fun dae. hpy teacher's dae to all the teacher's out dere!!! dis mornin was HORRIBLE. i walked out of my hse in darkness without lights and all i cn think abt is ghost. den the lift cao scary la. den i went dwn and i was in a rush as i was late. den it started to RAIN. and i forgt to bring my umbrella. so i run in the rain wth two bottles of pringles in my hands like a vry stupid person. den i jaywalk AGAIN. wa. todae damn nice to jaywalk. no cars. =) den winnie the pooh is so cute... but vry ex... T.T hahas. AND after i rch sch my shoes is super wet. and its vry disgustin. so i wnated to go hme and change b4 gng to prps and evrytin was planned until i realised tad... i FORGOT to bring my hse key. no hse key how to go hme?!? vry stupid lor... den the performance todae vry nice esp the chinese dance one and bondia's one. its VERY nice... hahas... and mr teo is cao funny. m singh cn rly do teh freeze mode lor.. pro.. LOL. and its rly like action city liddat. aft6er sch wen to prps. den visit ms neo.. =) and c mr pear... urgh... he is like.. forgt it.. den we were plaein murderer. and kent is so quiet. LOL. a bit only. hahas. we plae murderer in sch like siao. den go sars hse put stuff and she len me her sandals. thanks! than we went dwn her blok to plae ALL shorts of games. after tad vry bored so go her hse. den me,amanda, sars,joel and kent was ovr dere plaein super lame games like twister. sars damn pro la. den cn sabo me de. hahas. she is FLEXIBLE. hahas. den kent and joel oso gt plae. cao funny lor. and i miss the OLD prps under ms lim. hahas. todae was fun and great! =)))

2006-08-16T00:13:00.000-07:00

vry long nvr post alrdy coz my com is dwn... sian... the stupid com ppl go take my cpu hme and fix... hais... dno will tak how long lor... nw dng "rs"... budden im postin instead coz my blog is almost dead. tracy tell me ur blog pw!!! =) my darh sittin beside me... LOL. im nt liestbian hor... hehes... soi hpy!!! sars and jy wrote letta to me.. BUT im gna kill jiaying.. wahaha... =x shall reply ur letta as soon as possible. im gna be SO dead when math test cums... i think im gng to fail it lor. die le la... i am lkike so confused about the graphs and the area and perimeter... i dun even noe how to find the area of a trapezium la... ltr fail.l.. i die lor... chinese test cher haven giv nak yet... todae gt caligraophy....damn cham la...l i anyhow paint.... than cher sae left and right i listen until blak and whit... so funny la... todae almost late for sch lors... nth to sae le... i go pass the com to my darh.. LOL..

- you have changed. you are not the person i used to know anymore.

2006-08-04T08:07:00.000-07:00

todae is vry fun. go pri sch to hlp out for sing singapre. hlped to mak props which are last min and dress up the dancers. all the kids look so cute. than i went arnd lookin for washrns wth lights. but cnt find one. even if u on the switch. than i ask ms neo. than she tell me is gt sensor one. u step in, they sense u than gt light. stupid principal idea la. so stupid cn. coz the sensor
is nt workin properly. i hope. coz i scraed is ghost. coz when i in the washroom wth ht the lights suddenly off. than we damn freaked out. of coz la. its like eight plus at nite and dere is only the two of us at the washrm? and sumre seventh mth lehs. than i scared. and hu hav heard of a sensor in the washrm b4? and sumre in a sch? nvm. principal siao liaos. todae damn fun lor. after the klasses we hlpin de performance ovr le than we pak up the props le cai go basketball court plae. sars and ht and tracy run so fast. T.T todae wna go trng de lors. nvm. than todae cao fun la. =p than go hme liaos. sian la. i hav to leav early. coz i stay n eunos. qi si wo le!!!

okay. i shall do the quiz tagged by char. =)

7 Random Facts About Me:
1. i am a girl
2. i hav two eyes
3. i hav one nose
4. i hav one mouth
5. i hav two legs
6. i hav two arms
7.i hav to hands ( DONE! nxt...)

7 Things That Scare Me:
1. ghosts
2. scary ppl
3. bng caught in klass for slpin
4. suddenly "attacked" by ppl
5. tests
6. quizes
7. ...
7 Random Music At The Moment:
1. untitled
2. buttons
3. evrytime
4. sumwhr ovr the rainbow
5. where you go
6. perfect
7. welcum to my life

7 Thing I Like The Most:
1. friends
2. family
3. being hpy
4. able to slp in peace
5. havin fun
6. handphone
7. computer

7 Things I Say The Most:
1. hur?
2. orh...
3. okay.
4. ya.
4. duh.
5. what?
6. lame.
7. siao.

- maybe its too late but i feel bad. im rly sry. i rly am.

2006-08-01T03:33:00.000-07:00

after many many daes i decided to post coz sars saes so. c i so guai. =p hahas. hw pilin higher and higher les. a lot of hw lehs. sian la.

quiz =.=

1) if the entire class is against a girl just because she is different, will you be part of the class or with the girl?

depends. if the girl is someone that even i cnt stand, maybe i will be with the class but i will tell them to not tease her and make her cry.

2) if u are in a rush to school and u sees someone whom needs help. will you help the fellow or rather care for yourself?

i will help the fellow even if it means that im late.

3) you sees a little boy standing in the middle of the road and he is about to get banged down. will you stand by and watch or push him away and risk your life for a stranger?

difficult one. i will not noe wd to do. maybe when the time comes i will noe what to do den. =)

tagging:
- sars
- tracy
- charmaine
- peishan
- jiayun
- chengling
=))))

2006-07-10T07:35:00.000-07:00

tagged by the VRY nice and CHIO sars ( i gna kill her sumdae) =)
What would you do if all your friends turned turn against you?

- i will cry. and change lors. and try to find out wds wrong wth me. and change for the betta.

Imagine a situation when a magic apple is given to you. Your best friend and you are left famished. Both of you are trapped and there is no way you can share the apple. It can only be eaten whole - due to it's magicness. Eating the apple would give one super energy, while the other friend would soon die. What would you do in such situation?

- i will let my frend eat it. coz if i eat than my frend die i will be vry guilty. and if i regret i oso cnt do anitin. than i will be bugged by my conscience foreva.

Revenge! Vengeance... If your friend of yours killed your closest kind due to a moment of folly, how would you reproach this matter?

- although is my frend, i shud go by the law. i will hand her ovr to the police lor. and let the law do wd is needed. but i will forgiv her.

TAGTAG
- char
- muni
hahas... =)))

2006-07-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

juz realised tad sars hav mre post than me. =( wl. she is like start dis yr than i started like dno how many ages ago lors. hahas. dis shows i nvr post de. hehe. todae when pasir ris prk. vry funny sia. tracy cycle until cao scary lors. LOL. she is like stand up than i awaes feel like gna fall. BUT shes a gd and steady cyclist. LOL. so nxt time u wnat ppl to ride wth u, tak tracy! hahas. than i gna pian dno how mani times tad the ball drop. than i keep on lookin bak. =.= vry funny todae. yups. and the dance thingy todae was funny. hahas. ht, tracy and sars rox!!! hahas. dey so funny la. sars donald duck. =.= hahas. jkjk. vry sian nw. hahas.

- wds ur prob?

2006-07-01T08:13:00.000-07:00

i dun want history to repeat itself. i want things to stay the same. i dun wna lose u. its nt time yet to sae gdbye. so dun go. dun mak me cry again.

2006-06-30T02:48:00.000-07:00

99 ques quiz sabo-ed by char =.=
1. full name: lim pei ying
2. name backwards: giny iep mil
3. were u named after any wann:dno lehs. heck la.
4. does ur name mean anitin: dnos.
5. nickname: pig, pig ying
6. screen name: hur?
7. date of birth: 15 june 1993
8. place of birth: east shore hosp
9. nationality: singaporean
10. current location: eunos ( but i wnat pasir ris!!!)
11. starsign: gemini
12. religion: buddhist lors =l
13. height: 162cm
14. weight: fourty sumtin
15. shoe size: dno lehs.
16. hair colour: cao ta color
17. eye colour: "ditto"
18. wad do u look lyk: myself.
19. innie of outie: ???
20. righty or left or ambidextrous: ???
21. gay, straight, bi or others: straight la duh.
22. best fwens: ht, sars, tracy, char, muni, jaime
23. best fwens yu trust the most: ht, sars, tracy, muni, char
25. best fwens of derr opposite sex: my bro =p
26. best buddies: ht, sars and tracy ( all chio bus)
27. boifwen of galfwen: *no comments*
28. crush: * no comments*
29. parents: mother and father lors. DUH.
30. worst enemies: so cxalled enemy ars. amanda lors. LOL
31. fav online guys: *no comments*
32. fav online gals: sars and tracy
33. funniest fwens: ht, sars, tracy and char ( all siao des) =p
34. craziest fwens: ht, sars and tracy ( esp. ht)
35. advice fwen: muni lors.
36. loudest fwen: dno lehs.
37. person i cry with: err... forgt le... i think is sars ars...?
38. ani sisters: dun hav. i want sis dun wnat bro!!!
39. ani bros: one lors. vry qianbian des!!! xD
40: ani pets: hamster(s) one died, one giv awae. =(
41. ani disease: no.
42. a pager: err... i dun liv in the centuries lors.
43. a personal phone line: yups.
44. a cell phone: dun hav i cnt survive liaos.
45. a lava lamp: ?
46. a pool or hot tub: gt. in my dreams.
47. a car: ya. toy car lors.

48. describe ur personality: sumtimes quiet, sumtimes noisy.
49. driving: u sure a nt? ltr i drive sing de death rate in car acc increase les.
50. car or one yu wann: toy car lor. dno wd brand lehs. =)
51. room: ...
52. wad's missing: oxygen. i die liaos.
53. sku: dhs. sighs. so chinese.
54. bed: normal bed lors.
55. relationship with yor parents: ...
56. blieve in yorself: ...
57. blieve in luv @ first sight: ...
58. consider yorself as a guudd listener: kay la.
59. get along with yor parents: ...
60. save yor email convos: no.
61. pray: yups.
62. blieve in reincarnation: ...
63. lyk to make fun of ppl: when i siao de hua.
64. lyk to talk on derr phone: kay las.
65. want to get married: ...
66. lyk to drive: ...
67. get motion sickness: yes. esp bus sick.
68. eat derr stems of derr brocolli: yups.
69. eat chicken fingers with a fork: yups. or else use hand mehs?
70. dream in colour: ...
71. type with yor fingers on homerow: ?
72. sleep with a stuffed animal: no. so scary la. imagine suddenly the eyes turn red.
73. right nxt to u: my naggin noisy mum.
74. on derr walls of maii room: white color.
75. on ur mouse pad: no mouse pad.
76. ur dream car: ...
77. ur dream date: ..
78. ur dream honeymoon spot: japan. perth.
79. ur dream husband or wife: ...
80. ur bedtym: ...
81. under ur bed: air.
82. derr single most important qns: ...
83. ur bad tym of derr dae: durin lessons. sure wna slp des. buidden cnt slp one.
84. yor worst fears: ghost lors. esp alone at nite.
85. derr weather is: sunny.
86. derr tym: 6.01
87. derr date: 29 june 2006
88. derr best trick yu have ever played on some wann: hehes. sars and char and muni and jaime. =)
89. derr weirdest food or drink dat u lyk: pig's liver. my bro call me siao.
90. theme song: ...
91. derr hardest thing of growing: lessons. imagine u wna slp budden u cnt. coz gt cher. and the one and only bo chap cher lesson where u cn slp gone le. so no chance of slpin anymre. HAIS.
92. yor funniest moments: err. tad time at pasir ris prk. than tad ht gimme the pian tai look. LOL.
93. yor scariest moments: when the door suddenly open. than my mum sae due to wiond. budden i feel like ppl watchin me liddfat. creepy lors. oso when i walk thru the prk late at nite wth ht than she go scare me.
94. derr silliest thing yu have said: dno.
95. the funniest or most desperate thing you have done to get the attention of the opposite sex: nvr done anything.
96. derr scariest thing dat happened with yor fwens: forgt les.
97. derr worst feeling on earth: fear.
98. derr best feeling on earth: happiness.
99. 5 ppl to do dhis quiz: sars and tracy. wna sabo sars oso budden she sabo me liaos. =.=

2006-06-29T06:53:00.000-07:00

todae is a borin dae. almost fell aslp durin history. its ridiculous. one assignment can take up half an hr. nad she juz go on. yak yak yak. noise pollution. almost fell aslp but obvioously cant. SIAN. geog is dead borin too. todae watch movie. as in sch de las. its the dno wd patch adams. damn ad sia the show. the girl died. but the guy vry pro. likes to mak ppl hpy. dun feel like gng trak tomolo. think i gta drag myself dere liaos. *sigh* its like sch ends so damn early den i go trak so end arly 4 wd...? aste time nia. i rather stay in sch for entire dae las. HAIS. and its at four. so im suppose to rot in sch until fopur. GREAT. juz did my malay. lame stuff. go internet cn liaos. hahas.

*u hurt me without noein it. but hw cld i gt it out of my mouth? numb and confused foreva.

2006-06-28T00:34:00.000-07:00

i post at last after tad SEXY sars ask me to... c i so nice... LOL. hpy birthdae to the da da da meinu!!! shen ri kui le!! hahas....HAPPY BIRTHDAE!!! hahas.... u grow old les...muz be mre guai and gimme fifty dlrs... HAHAS... =x jkjk... todae caligraphy kns... i draw until like shit and sry muni...=( vry guilty lors...HAIS...LOL... end of my post...dun sae too short hors... cause at least i posted!!! =P

*driftin further and further apart.i can feel the strain. its here. u juz dun feel it. coz u dno it. hey, im human. i hav feelings.

2006-06-21T05:48:00.000-07:00

Tag by Tracy

Your 10 Favourites:

Favourite colour: pink, blue, black
Favourite food: chicken rice
Favourite song: you're beautiful (LOL)
Favourite movie: a series of unfortunate events (budden a lot of ppl sae nt nice)
Favourite sport: netball
Favourite season: how i noe. i only experience summer b4. LOL.
Favourite day of the week: saturday
Favourite ice-cream flavour: vanilla, choc, choc chip, strawberry

9 Current:

Current mood: sian
Current clothes: pe t-shirt
Current desktop: dno lehs.
Current toenail colour: natural
Current time: 8.48pm
Current annoyance: err... my bro.
Current thoughts: SIAN

8 First:

First best friend: ashley lor
First crush: *no comments*
First movie: forgt liaos
First piercing: last yr lors
First lie: siao. i dun hav gd memory lors.
First music: cnt rmb la.
First car: err... toy car.

7 last:

Last ciggarette: i dun smoke.
Last drink: err... heaven and earth green tea.
Last car ride: ytd.
Last crush: no comments*
Last movie seen: garfield 2
Last phone call: charmaine
Last CD played: dno lehs. i plae song. nvr plae cd. =)

Have you ever:

Have you ever date one of your bestfriends: paisei. i no bf. =)
Have you ever broken the laws: yes. jaywalkin. hu nvr lors.
Have you ever been arrested: no. heng sia. coz the police blind.
Have you ever been skinny dipped: SIAO
Have you ever been on tv: yes
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: no

5 things you are wearing:
- shirt
- pant
- earrings
-hairband
-hairclips

4 things you have done today:
- trak
- eat
- use com

3 things you can hear right now:
- stupid tv
- bro eatin durian =.=
- me typin

2 things you can't live without:
- family
- friends

Things you do when you're bored:
- breathe
- listen to songs.
- di siao ppl. :D

And now, for the 5 people you tag:
- ...
- ...
- ...
- ...
- ...

2006-06-16T08:20:00.000-07:00

ytd was a fun fun fun dae lor... hahas... thanks to sars, tracy ht , hazel, coach and ms neo... thanoks coach for the cake!!! LOL. budden kena smeared... esp HT lor... ytd cao fun sia... than we "grill" ice cream... damn disgustin lor... LOL. than ms neo gta go first... coz her baby cry.. =.= at first a lot of ppl can go de lor... than last min no one wna go... wl lor... si jy... i mean BOTH of the jy... in the end nvr go...budden i oso broke liao... thanks 4 the netball, sweets, cakes and t-shirt!!! LOl. thanks to all!!!~ MUACKS.

i hav been wantin to sae dis all the while... i am sry for my attitude last time towards trak but i hav tried hrd to change... and i hav nt slaked as much as b4... i told myself nt to be a lousy tarker anymre... and i DUN treat trak as a shelter... hav NEVER treated it as a shelter... if i tak it as a shelter, i wld hav go to other ccas... wd is e point of stayin in trak despite tryin so hrd when others are forever DAO-IN u...? i hav learnt to luv trak, i hav slowly learnt to adore and enjoy evry min of it... BUT can u all plz gimme a chance to change ur views...? i hav nt been as slaky as b4... i hav TRIED... but wds the point of joinin a CCA whr evrybdy is whisperin behond ur baks, givin u glances, and takin it as if u r invisible? tell me, wds the point?

2006-06-02T21:15:00.000-07:00

to all trakers: realise tad i hav been slakin throughout the entire trng minus away one trng. realise tad i hav been slakin all the while. evry trng i tell myself to do my best but i end up slakin. sry for nt doin my best. sry 4 lettin u all dwn. i promise i will try my best to be N2 and nt slak and go 4 all trngs. sry. i shall try hard nxt tiime. i noe my attitude towards trak sucks. i shall turn my attitude frm negative to positive. hopefully. it will hlp. *sigh* im such a lousy traker.... sry 4 wad i said and tagged. i was juz jkin. but i noe my attitude towards trak seriously sux to the core. sry. hate me for all u want. i shall try to change my attitude for the betta. i shall learn to luv trak. once again. greatest apologies to all. SORRY.

2006-06-02T05:27:00.000-07:00

i finally posted after like dunno how mani complaints frm ppl tad my blog was damn dusty. ya. todae gt trng. was late again. but i slaked 4 the warm-up. than after tad run rnd the stadium. and i was thinkin like maybe i hav ran rnd that stadium 4 like one hundred times? ya. than run run run. zzz.... sian. vry slaky today. k. im foreva slakin. nvm. went hme wth joanne. tak bus lor. SIAN. than were tokin abt the ring. scary la. the show. when the gal climbs out of the well and evrything. than she alighted. =l than i ownself on the bus. SIAN. than tak bus 17. rch hme!!!~ yeah! LOL. nth to sae leh... and yeah! ht is bak frm sss liao!!!~ so hpy!!! haha... she still as chio as eva.. =x hehe... jiayou 4 netball!!!~ LOL. =D

2006-05-25T23:05:00.000-07:00

im taggin nw after a long long time in the library.... dis mornin until afternoon i was achooin like siao... than okay liao... LOL. after drinkin two cups of hot milo my nose resumed its normal position!!` okay.... my nose is still a teeny weeny bit runny. and today my hp wu ma fen si again.... sigh.... today sar dey all watchin movie/.... =( than me cnt watch coz i gt trak.... haiz.... todae trak cnt skip lor.... coz my instinct tells me tad todae vry important... urgh.... imagine me runnin under the freakin sun and sars dey all watchin movie.... NVM... i shant be light bulb... :p

* we are drifting further and further apart. we dun understand each other anymore. im lost.

2006-05-19T06:27:00.000-07:00

todae trng... FORCED to go... wish tad i can dun go.... *prays hard* want to quit oso cannot.... *sigh* wo hai shi ren ming bahz.... dun go todae de hua sure kena scolded dez.... i rly hav no idea wad gt into my head to go 4 trak... i muz be keesiao... todae vry siao...
MORNIN: drink coffee.... wth char lorz... than coffee kena me skirt... than she laugh laugh laugh... sae me so big liao still dunno how to drink coffee... *hmpff* and she drink coffee cao man lehz... than went bak class... and climbed FOUR storeys... wdh la... than i continue my lame lame record of cuttin out daphne dey all de mad cards without breakin any paper.... AND i completed the record... feel so shuang!!~ lol... me siao liao. than after tad is flag-raisin... and surprise!!~ tad stoopid B.L nvr go spot-check durin flag-raisin. than IP she nvr cum... wa... i cao hpy lor... ltr she nag nag nag again... LAO TAI PO... than read alyson bloog( nth to do mahz...) found out B.L was sick todae... maybe her high blood pressure SOOT up... LOL. juz realise tad i hate her to the core. stupid cher. EVIL GRIN. SARCASTIC SMILE. than after tad is geog test... quite easy lorz... than i suspect mr tum likes ms tang...? errr... possible...? budden rly cnt imagine mr tum n ms tang... (pukes) than after tad is math... and i tot cher forgt abt the punishment liao... than dunno which smart aleck hao jie sao go tell ms ngua... than hav to sing song.. than in the end dunno sing wad song... so nxt wk... she betta forgt... DUN remind her horz... =)))) than i watched zouyue dey all mak de game... cao fun leh... and creative... i think our grp de mad zui lan... =( my chinese KNS la... ahh!!!~ the lowest of all subjects lorz.... than after sch go paya lebar eat lunch... at 7-11.... than on the bus... behind me n char... gt two vry ENTHU gals... dey were laughin n laughin lorz... and the things deyy were laughin abt were RLY vry funny la... than me n char tok tok tok... and she kiked me for the FOURTH time alrdy.... piang eh... i tot sharks cnt kik ppl de...? than we eat the maggi mee lor.... than after tad go tak mrt to bishan... SIAN... than me n alyson tok abt B.L and other stuffs... than after tad we rch bishan liaoz... and found out tad u can actually walk to the stadium by anthr way... and on the mrt.... we saw a vry vry scary gal... hu act jap ppl budden in the end end up lyke GUI... vry scary lorz... worst than malay cher... than oso gt one gal (her frend) go and puit one rose at her head... and she think cao nice when its UGLY LIKE SAI la... than after tad we rch the stadium.. than tot tad we first one... than we saw cassandra, steffi, cheryl and err... sry... but i forgt ur name... +( than i was like uh-oh... than nvm... coz i9 tot tad dey will oso slak a bit dez... than ask dem gt anybody else... than dey sae gt shiying and yuh ding... than i wa slike... OMG!!~ dey cao cao cao guai de lorz... so cnt slak... +( and we did ten sets of stairs CONTINOUSLY!!~ i almost died la... and the rest are so fast lorz... than i ran 5 sets of 400m... SIAN la.. whole dae long only run run run. than after tad do 3200m... wth plmgs gals sumre... SIAO la... and dey run so fast... want my life sia... than i was so far behind lorz... =( yeah! tomolo weekend... can slp n wake up late... and wish HONG TING hpy early birthday!!!~ lol... hpy birthday gal !!!

2006-05-18T04:00:00.000-07:00

elloo.... vry long nvr blog liao... tomolo gt freakin geog test.... ARGH... nad my chinese o0verall KNS... ahhh... todae LA gt one stupid wrkshop.... muz sae: thhhhhhhreeeeee twoooo onee acTion muz biao zhun ying wen... lame la... than i was sian and wna do other stuff... than she like mr tum liddat... mona lisa eyes... and SUMRE nt like him bochap... so i cnt do anything... sit sit sit... listen listen listen.... sian sian sian.... "ring!!!" bell finally ring liao.. wl... how long la... slept straighawae after the cher left.... ZZZZZ.... nxt time dun cum again lehz... dunno how many mre wks wth her lehz... OMG lor... i hate geog... geog sux.... ARGH.... can dun study a not...?

2006-05-13T20:29:00.000-07:00

its been a long long time eva since i blogged... ytd go watch the duno wad show... can la... budden is still a waste of money and time lor... than after tad go bugis.... sry char... cnt pei ni... paisei./...=( sry hor... than after tad tracy go find the SSTM mi lu bing... haha... n she was at bugis village lor... and she walked the entire bugis... LOL... xiao dao wo ban si... haha... she is like... so malu... lol... haha... and her strepsils were still intact.... haha... diao lor.... than char jia you hor.. finish the proj... JIAYOU!!! =)))))) vry sian now... hu wna go out,....? go pg...? anyone....?

2006-05-07T00:37:00.000-07:00

turn bak time...

if only things will remain the same...

all i wna sae is...

frends foreva...

2006-05-05T06:59:00.000-07:00

i hav skipped trng for dis entire week which is omg... budden no choice... coz hav to do freakin proj... as in like my proj dere's thousands of dem...? geog... science... math the real major one... ? urgh... feel so bad abt skippin trak lor... ltr kena scolded and questioned like siao... *sigh* stop givin me projects!!! GIMME A BREAK MAN!!! evryday oso test test test... dis wk i kena three tests liao lor... and math is a real killer... followed by chinese... urgh.... hopefully i dun fail bahz... *prays hard* todae jiu hui and feng po zi and yishao come mi hse go do proj... den the feng po zi now no voice... i can sing now liao!!! haha... dun kill me la... jkjk... fun dae today... lol... gtg... me mum naggin.... urgh... SHUDDUP... gimme a break la.. wl... once cum hme than ear exercise liao....

MUM'S ARE SO FREAKIN IRRITATIN... CAN'T I HAV A BREAK??

URGH... FREA-K...

2006-04-26T06:15:00.000-07:00

how can u ask me not to be afraid when the same thing hav happened b4? i can nvr forgt it no matter how hard i wanted it to. im afraid that u will do tad to me again. we hav been frends for many yrs. and i dun wna lose you. im afraid and the fear hav came bak.

2006-04-23T03:46:00.000-07:00

since im bored to tears, i decided to do a lame lame quiz... :p frm tracy de...
Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people. START!

1. hongting
2. charissa
3.tracy
4.qing hui
5. georgina
6. jiaying
7. jingying
8.bee leng
9. chow lin the stupid monkey
10. jia jin
11.kent
12. joanathan
13. joel
14. kenneth
15.aloysius
16. charmaine
17.muni
18. daphne
19. jaime
20. amanda

1. How did you meet 14?
err... thru amanda? lol...

2. What would you do if you never met 1?
i wld be bored to tears without her and noone to tell my secrets to. in short, i can't liv without her. she brought joy and happiness.... =)))

3. What would you do if 9 and 20 dated?
err... i would faint on the spot... k... seriously... it ALMOST happened budden one so short one so tall... a bit not pei leh... dunno leh... but i will CHOKE if dey dated....

4. Did you ever like 19?
du-h..

5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
err... dey dun even noe each other... so how could dey eva be a couple? and sumre dey are straight and not lestbians...

6. Describe 3.
vry chio fun and outgoin... and vry vry chio.... ya... brought happiness and joy... :p

7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
YES....

8. Tell me something about 7.
err... luvs jian wei? dun kill me hor jing ying... and she rawks... perth trip is so fun... haha... my perfect and pian tai roomate... *sigh*

9. Do you know anything about 12's family?
gt parents than dunno liao...

10. What's 8's favourite?
netball... think so bah....

11. What would you do if 18 confessed that he/she likes you?
i will faint coz shes straight and im too... it will nvr happen... yup-yup...

12. What language does 15 speaks?
a language tad evryone speaks... wad a dumb ques... NEXT...

13. Who is 9 going out with?
cannot sae... ltr i kena whacked by xxx.... =s

14. How old is 16 now?
err... the youngest of all??? 11 plus goin to be 12?

15. When's the last time you talk to 13?
err... since last yr?

16. What's 2 favourite singer/band?
a lot leh... how to name... i noe la... her fav singer is me!!! wahaha... lol...

17. Would you ever date 4?
err... dun want la... she gt so many admirers... ltr if i date her which is impossible coz im not liest, i will be killed within one sec le...

18. Would you ever date 7?
dun like to fight wth xxx leh... :p

19. is 15 single?
no idea... not tad close la...

20. What's 10's last name?
jin...

21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
*cough**cough**roll eyes* NEVER!!! but he will be suitable wth xxx.... not me la... he so noisy... :p

22. What school does 3 goes to?
cchms... i wna go dere oso leh...

23. What's your favourite thing about 5?
err... loves dogs...? dunno leh....

24. Have you ever seen 3 naked?
NO!!!

25. Anybody you really want to do this quest?
err... ht and sars... hehe.... and all hu wna do lor...

2006-04-21T21:50:00.000-07:00

yutd was the best day eva.... actually wna go to bedok library at one de budden char call me to go dere earl... than juz go lor... than went dere... than find two freezin ppl hu takes me as an insulator... than i actually not cold de than dey use me as insulator than i oso cold liao... than went to eat lunch... dey wna eat fast food de... budden i voiceless cnt eat ma... so dey vry nice eat kopitiam food wth me.. tanz... than went to dunno whr de study corner do project... than we do and do... than i operated on two sponges... than after doin the project i go ask ppl on pinion on how to mak it look nicer... budden i kena dao by ppl... -.- thahn i paint the dunno wad... than my hand damn dirty... than no water... than rain le... gt free water so might as well use it... so i washed my hand... haha... than after tad we finish the project liao.. than wna go bak le... i ltr goin to tm to meet sar and tracy mah... than i follow char, moo and char de sis to dunno whr... than dey nvr tell me whr is the nearesr bus stop... than sumre i dunno the way... than no choice lor... go take cab... four ninety.... T.T than after tad rush to the mrt station to find ht... wa... than she damn seh sia... she wear her sss skirt... and her jacket is like damn cool lor... than she gt one vry vyr big bag... take frm her hostel de... like she went overseas than come bak liddat... than we boarded the train... and than went to tm... than we meet sar and tracy... than we do the dujnno wad handicraft thingy for sar dad birthday present... than we do until siao.... but vry fun... vry funny leh.. i shud sae thank u to ars for lettin us do than she tanks us for hlpin her... -.- than we went to took neoprint... ht go wear her jacket coz she damn cool than she look damn seh sia... jealous le.. wahaha... than took the neoprints.. the machine lousy la.. so little time one... vry qian bian lor.. tha went to ws and buy sras dad de birthday cake... than after tad dey pei wo go foodcourt packet my dinner.... and i was starving... than after tad go hme lor... than on the bus bak ht cao funny sia... she go sae all the bad malay wrds... than sittin behind us gt mala ppl... than she ae is actually chinese... budden look like malay leh.. than when ht sae one malay wrd tad is vry vulgar the lady is like starin at he rlor... oopss.... than ht damn siao sia... she go play vry loud the hpy tree frends song and the spongebob song.. lol... than dey alighted a stop b4 me... so nice of dem lor... ht lor.... so nice... nvr pei wo... lol... jkjk... than rch hme i dead beat liao... than dump my things on the floor than hry up go makan liao.. so hungry lor me.. by than is like eight lus plus le... than after tad go bathe... than slp le... fun dae ytd.... tanz to tracy, sar, ht, char, her sis and muni... wahaha... tanz for makin my day memorable... :p

2006-04-16T21:57:00.000-07:00

todae i was sick... the stupid doc sae i kena flu.... but nt bird flu so u all dun need to wear mask... now usin like dunno how many packets of tissue liao.... baka la... than throat sore sore de... dis mornin gao xiao... first is char call than moo call... =.=" my face is like three hundred lines downn my face... :p at least dey gt call me... wahaha.... now quite hpy coz here i am resting n dere are the rest listenin to chers crappin non-stop... wahaha.... my nose e tap spoil liao... i need plumber sia... todae is damn damn damn suay lor... at the registration counter in polyclinic, my no is 7310 than when i go dere the no is 7266 nia... and dey go by sequence lor... than i waitn klike siao... 7267, 7268,7269.... than i saw divya!!! than we chat.... ya.... but now my nose is like alamak!!! vry runny lor.... than red like rudolph.... tired.... zzz..... tissue.... achoo....

2006-04-13T08:27:00.000-07:00

tanz lots and lots and lots to all those hu zhi chi wo todae at the sports meet although i didn't come in first.... ya... BUT at least i didn't gt last!!! and thousnads of sry to wenxin.... i accidentally trip u.... real sry... i feel vry guilty now... sry.... ya and espiecally tanz to char, muni and sar for cheering until ur hong long mei sheng ying... lol.... TANZ!!! ai si ni men le.... =)))))))

todae while waliing to the prize table dere someone tapped on my shoulder... and guess hu i saw? (hpy guessing) u are lucky tad i nvr put ur name.... u are so childish.... aiya, so wad if u run fast la.... its the attitude tad counts... gt it right. its the ATTITUDE tad counts... yup-yup... i noe u run vry fast.... i can tell.... but dere is no need to show off and "chi ji" wo... i am not fazed at all by someone hu dun even respect her aunties and uncles and blog discrimative stuff abt dem.... i respect u as u are older than me... but u dun deserve it at all.. u c me bu shuang than nvm lor... oso dun need awaes zhen dui wo wad... if u still vry bu shuang ovr the blog post thing i cnt do anything right.... but its true tad u dun even respect anyone... when u try to chi ji wo evrytime i go ur hse, i shall tell u dis: save ur breath.... i shal;l not lose my temper anymre ovr someone hu is so CHILDISH and DISRESPECTFUL... i noe my running is not good at all... and i admit it... but at least i respect my elders... i noe u are vry pretty.... but u may look vry vry nice on the outside but u need to do something abt ur attitude... if ur sis are readin dis, let me tell u all..... i still respect u... maybe u all think tad u all dun even want my respect.... becoz i discriminate against ur sis.... but its the truth... maybe shes gloating abt it now and u all are laughin... but seriously i am not fazed at all.... u all may think tad i hav ap but think all u want... but think whether ur sis is actually doin the right thing... imagine if i go towards u after u run and say tad ur running is lousy.... obviously u will be pissed off right? but i simply dun feel any respect for u anymre and i dun even feel ninety percent pissed off.... if u are thinkin of making me piss, giv it up.... i shall not waste my breath ovr childish ppl.... curse me for all u wnat.... coz i am sayin right frm the bottom of my heart... why u awaes muz zhen dui wo de? at least ur sis are nice people... ni kan wo bu shuang oso dun nd liddat right... and u once mentiond tad im jealous of u... i than dun wish to be jealous ovr someone hus ATTITUDE is a total failure... i will nvr be jealous of u and hav nvr been jealous of u b4... i hav tolerated u long enuff and hav ignored ur totally bad attitude wheneva i vist granny... but since u juz continue to make fun of me lemme tell u dis... dun make me 100% pissed off.... i hav toleratd u long enuff but evrybdy tolerance hav a certain limit and my limit is not tad high.... u can insult me for all u like at ur blog but i shant be pissed at all.... coz i dun take a person wth bad attitude wrds to heart.... so sav ur breath... and one thing... stop thinkin tad u vry sexy and catwalk and wear vry vry vry short pants... dey look totally grooss.... wear normal pants and walk normally and u shall look vry beautiful.... coz u are beautiful but u r spoilin ur own image... curse me wth all ur might... i dun care and shant be bothered.... u are so old and matured already but y still act like a three yr old kid? tads so childish...

2006-04-12T05:51:00.000-07:00

i giv up. i giv up on evrything. i juz completely giv up. i dun hav the strength to stay afloat on the sea anymre. i GIV UP completely. im lost. completely. someone, save me.

LOST FOREVER IN THE DEEP BLUE SEA WITH ITS GALLOWS AWAITING ME.
IM NOT SAD, BUT HAPPY.
IM BEARING THE PAIN, AND STOPPING MYSELF FROM SCREAMING OUT LOUD IN AGONY.
I CANT WAIT TO BE FREE, AT LONG LAST.
IM LOST COMPLETELY.
WAD AM I TYPING?

2006-04-08T06:28:00.000-07:00

i am very unhpy and stress now. wanna cry budden no tears will come out... ya.... now is like han zhu lei... ben lai cum hme hpy hpy de than after tad jiu sad liao... i shudden even come hme at all. char im not insulting u or anything... juz jking..... ya... and i juz realised that noone cares for me at all.... its like im left out and eva so extra-ded. evrytime i tell ppl to smile but evrytime i cry.... evrytime i han zhu lei, and bottle myself up. and when i truly can cry without anyone watching me my tears juz wun flow. y? becoz i hav cried too mch. i hav cried too many times and my tears are all dried up. i feel empty and hollow inside me. dere is noone to fill up the hole in my heart, noone to care for me. im all alone in dis pathetic wrld. i juz wna die. y muz it be tad wadeva i c is darkness and nt light? y muz it be tad i was the one tad is the only and lonely one on dis earth? my mum is pissed off wth me and she is scolding me... wad did i do? y muz my phone be consficated? y muz my life be so hard on me? y muz i awaes be the extra-ded one? y cant i liv happily like b4? y cant i smile and tell myself tad tomolo will be a hpy day like today? y isnt dere a dae whr i can wake up in the mornin happily and slp happily? y muz dere be unhpy things when i am hpy? y muz life be so hrd on me? sometimes i think of dying. and i was actually wishing, secretly, that a car will bang me, end my life. and i shall cry, one tear, and no mre. evryday, i ffeel so lonely, evryday, i feel like crying. i wish i was like all of u, hpy awaes. u two are so close to ech other. and i am so left out. i noe u all will be asking me wads my problem but i juz notice tad im so extra, pushing myself into ur wrld. i juz notice tad u two are the closest friends of all, hu chats wth ech other on the phone, sms, and shua ppl together. i juz notice tad im awaes tryin to find out wad happen and i am awaes afraid, tad one day, i will hav no frends. noone to care for me. and i will hav to walk alone, by myself. i can nvr gt rid of the fear inside me. tell me, tad u will be by my side foreva no matter wad. tell me, tad u will be my frends awaes. life sucks. totally. there's no reason y i shud continue staying on the earth. deres no reason y i shud keep on telling ppl to smile while i myself is sad. i juz wna make u all hpy, and tad even though im sad, i will feel hpy 4 u all. evryti9me i try to keep a hpy tone when my pri sch frends call me, while on the other sid ei was secretly crying. life can nvr be the same right? im afraid. afraid tad one day life can nvr be the same again. im losing my way. i may appear hpy but deep inside im afraid, afraid tad one day, noone will catre for me and tell me tad dey dun like me. im afraid tad the persons i trust will tell me to gt lost. im afraid. i need some reassuraance. i noe. im pathetic.

-my life ain't hpy no more

2006-04-07T01:18:00.000-07:00

im posting now... ytd took an iq test... i gt 118... yup... QUITE HIGH HOR... dun insult me ok... or else i shall killl u... chop u into nine pieces... and than feed u to the dogs.. and tan burn ur bones.. and scatter it across the sea.. ya... so dun insult me ok.. or else u die... espiecally the big bully char... yup-yup... todae... i gt one crazy siao shark... nvr hear of mad shark disease right? budden my klass gt one wth tad illnesss leh. she can laugh n cry at the SAME time ok... she is bonkers... ya.... seriously siao... ya... she is MAD... wa lao.. she insult me... hmpfff.... si char.... watch out!! ltr midnight i kill u... ya.... than todae the movie not sad at all and i juz cant understadn y cow n shark cry.... ??? the show sad meh... so lame la... err.... no offence.... to those hu thik its nice..... its like... e volume so soft... ya... but PERHAPS i will end up crying... ya... but hopefully not bahz... is hall end here now..... i go the stadium liao... bb...

2006-04-04T21:13:00.000-07:00

it hav been a vry vry long time eva since i post something. no mood mah. nowadays is like im crazy. im like one moment siao siao de than another moment sad sad de. i even cried in sch todae. i think evrything oso i hai one... im a jinx... budden now betta liao... juz now juz siao siao de break dwn... im goin bonkers... believ me. can someone reserve a place 4 me in imh? i feel so afraid now. 4 no reason. im rly goin to go siao soon. maybe im afraid of losing my friends, afraid of bein lonely. i dunno. im crazy. bonkers.

2006-03-30T04:42:00.000-08:00

new blogskin under construction..... =)

2006-03-22T03:14:00.000-08:00

to amanda tan gan xin :
some things to clarify:
1) i am not bu shuang wth u or anything so plzzzzz dun zhen dui wo
2) i dun hate u or anything
3) when i sae sss win, it is becoz i m hpy 4 ht so plz stop thinkin tad im hpy becoz ahs lost
4) dun assume things b4 clarifying
5) i still treat u as a frend
therefore, plz dun make me change my mindset abt u coz i treat u as a FREND now....

todae mornin cao cao cao funny..... i n qh take the train to sch than guess hu we saw on the train!!!! hasif... muahaha qh..... bad luk..... than we walk awae to another carraige. funny sia her.... she is like so diao la.... than after tad pass letta to sars. tell me hu u lyke leh.... kui sae!!! than our music cher vry cool leh.... he is like so funny la... n we made mr tum sing again.... his voice is actually nice...... than gt history n teacher vry funny..... she asked me whr i gt the informations frm n when i said tad i refer to internet she asked me to PRINT out the webpage... wa lao... my printer ink!!!! n she asked another funny ques the previous lesson. she asked nobdy but me whether i hav any sec one frends in dhs.... funny sia... y she so weird de... ask so funny de ques.... todae rs finally gt one ques liao.... hopefully dun change the topic again..... i go do my science liao.... SIAN LA...... todae lsp is damn boring... ... ...

2006-03-20T17:15:00.000-08:00

im lost in a sea. someone, cum n rescue me.

- life ain't no more

2006-03-18T03:26:00.000-08:00

be myself... wad an easy wrd to sae, but yet so diff to do...... hu dun wish to be urself? hu dun wish to scream out loud in public when u hav the urge to? hu dun wish to do things dey want to? dere r things tad hold us bak, prevent us frm bein ourselves. n nvr will we be able to break free, im sure. the cage is juz too strong n even when u break free, dere r consequences to face. do u think i like to put a false smile plastered on my face? do u think i like to smile n shrug it off when i gt insulted? do u think i like to keep evrythin bottled up inside me? no, i dun. but i juz hav to hang on, onto the tiny thread, tad kept me frm losin myself. be myself. wad an easy wrd to sae, but yet so diff to do....

2006-03-10T23:30:00.000-08:00

todae is a saturday! tomolo is a sundae! tomolo tomolo is a holidae!!! =.=" i noe la. i vry lame. yeah! holidae is cumin..... so hpy. can lac liao. muahaha. ytd gt trak. sian la. zzz. than after trak go mac wth emily to eat dinner. i noe la. i gt vry weird eatin habits. hahar. than after tad take bus bak to mrt. zzz. than take the train. ZZZ!!!! frm dover(izzit?) to pasir ris leh. all the way. dammit la. than i rch hme vry late. i watch the nine o clock show than after five min the end liao. wa lao eh. todae eat cup noodles. can sav money. hahar. nowadays i bankrupt liao. any donations? ltr goin joggin wth ht than go na-gi-geor hse. lol. nxt fri gt match. sian la. zzz. i haven even touch up on my hmewrk lor. lol. i vry slak la. i wait last min than do. i cut my crap le. ltr ppl complain sae i awaes blog rubbish. well, i am bloggin rubbish. nth else to sae le. burbye, =)

2006-03-09T03:40:00.000-08:00

i vry long nvr blog liao coz: 1) i vry down lately
2) a lot of homewrk
3) too lzy...
hahar. budden now i betta liao so i can blog! budden i quite upsstet ovr one thing. lihui. cheer up ok? dun be so sad. cheer up. big smiles! still gt me to zhi chi ni. lol. muz smile ar. todae i wna return sars her four dollars than she recess watch x-men. qian bian la. si sars. than after scyh i went to eat. i gtin fatter la. than after tad go library wth charmaine than muni go dunbno wad trainin. than i was ovr dere readin bk than charmaine ovr dere type type. i wna book com oso budden dun hav one wth internet access liao. than she take vry long to type a few sentences lor. heng i nvr take jap. muz be vry diff. hen pei fu charmaine. than after tad she left le. left me alone. than i wanderin aimlessly like gui liddat. than gang hao c until zuoyue. than i pei ta dao four. at four she gt table temnnis. than we chat la. chat chat chat.... than she hav to go liao. than she is like so scared of goin in la. aiya,m dun need to be scared de. muz be like me, hou lian pi! lol. jk la. than i buy coffe frm the vendin machine. nice sia. so now i vry energitic. lol. than i wait 4 muni. wait wait wait. than suddenly i rmb library gt com. than i was like," why i so stupid ar? nbr think of tad?" so i go dere than coz vry late liao so nobody so i play until library close. i was plaein neopets la. vry lame. i noe. than after tad i went dwn than go find charmaine. than c qh. than i tell her ltr take mrt wth her. she oso takin wth her senior. than after tad we take 158 bak. than we were tokin abt bu ya guan de stuff. than i was like cao cao cao embarass when gt ren shi wo men budden wo bu ren shi de gals behind listenin. malu sia. than after tad rch liao. i sae bb to muni. tanz muni 4 pei wo! than i take mrt wth qh n her senior budden i was like cao extraded la. 9 stand at one side of the mrt than qh chat wth her senior,. so extra! than i tgo ws buy earpiece. i was lioke which one to buy? wad color? than finally decided after a long long long time. than i go buy vanilla ice cream frm mac. dunno la. nowadays siao de. like to eat vanilla ice cream. muz be vry long nbr eat liao mah. than go hme eat mai pian xia. yummy! lol. i go do hiostory liao. yawn...

- i dun understand anybody n nobody will understand me. i am not wad i use to be, and i dun feel like i belong here, now, at this time, this place. this wrld is too complicated for me. someone save me. dis place is too sad a place 4 me, too depressin n too dissapointin. i juz totally hate backstabbers. frea-k. i wish dey will die off. i wish. can wishes cum true?

2006-03-03T23:30:00.000-08:00

ytd gt math test. yao le wo de ming. i nbr do a lot of ques. die liao la. my malay test e results alrdy vry cham than plus my chines n math fail than i die lor. pray tad wun fail lor. hopes. charmaina dunno wads wrong leh. vry sad. y u sad? cheer up ok. than muni ytd not feelin well. ok le mah? than i went 4 trak. clementi leh!!! omg. so far lor. than i go woodsland find ht eat dinner. lol sia. gtg. tata.

2006-03-02T19:04:00.000-08:00

err. it lesson again. or else where wld i find the time to blog? ok. i noe i vry vry long nbr blog liao. dun blame me coz i seriously no time. i gt a lot of tests than sumore gt trak. wed i was like vry unwell in sch so i study 4 like one hr than i took a cab hme than its like omg! i fogt to bring hse key. than i hav to go find my mum gt the hse keys. funny sia. ht cumin bak todase! yeah! can tok to her liao. tomolo maybe go cheryl hse budden i dunno shld go a not leh..... wo zhen de bu zhi dao lor. i hope dere is netball in the sch soon man. i wish sia. than coach gt coach irene lor. ytd after sch i stay bak wth muni to play chinese chess. than charmaine oso wth us than she jiu shi pian pian bu yao pei wo men wan xiang qi. hmpff.... than after tad we go do sch wrk. than i was doin my math assighnment. than wna finish liao so i cao cvao cao hpy mah. until muni c liao than notice my method all wrong. than i hav to redo. wa lao. than i was over tad fa shen jing. i do the assignment 4 dunno how long lor. than i was likevry piss off la. than i redo at hme. T.T than after sch tad time tracy call me pei ta hui jia budden i wna stay bak play chinese chess. sry tracy. paisei.. hen dui bu qi.... sars if u readin dis, muz rmb 5to tell me whether tomolo goin cheryl hse a not hor! bak to the topic. than charmaine go 4 third lang liao left me n muni. than after study than go hme lor. than i buy barley onli. i vry weird rite? than i pour the cup of barley into my water bottle. lol. than on the bus bak i teach muni my dialect budden i vry lousy la. i onli noe like basic stuff. tads y when my grandma tok to me in dialect i awaes go huh here huh dere lor. vry funny la. than after tad muni n i alight at the mrt dere. muni tanz so mch 4 accompanyin me. xie xie. than i went to the mrt. take the mrt. than on the mrt gt this lady she dress until so sexy lor. than she gt dis ultra ultra strong perfume smell. i almost choke sia. than gt dis irritatin lady hor., no place to move in coz the train is like vry crowded. tahn i was near the entrance. than she came in. than she push me aside. than she squeeze herself into the tiny weeny space in front of the seats. siao lor. coz she waitin 4 seats mah. oso dun nd liddat rite. siao de lor. so inconsiderate. than i almost fall down la. i was like givin her the wad the look than she juz bo cap me. qian bian la. betta not blog le. teacher later scold budden she spot me bloggin liao. hu cares la. i cut the crap liao. tata.

2006-02-27T17:13:00.000-08:00

now it lesson... kao... i think i will nvr understand wad is she tryin to sae. i wna listen budden she gt dis extremely strong accent how u ask me to understand??? i can onloi lyke make out a few wrds lor. sian la. ytd nbr blog rite. so i tok abt ytd. ytd went to sch. du-h. than was in klas, dyin of boredom. than after tad gt trak. n guess wad!!! it is in BISHAN!!! omg.... than i went home wth keni, stepphy(izzit?), joan n charlotte. joan vry funny lor. she go hide the drink frm 7-eleven in her SHOEBAG!!! n drink. yuks. shoebag leh... whr u put all ur smelly shoes. wa lao. i rather not drink lor. than normally i heck care, eat n drink in the mrt budden i c dey all so guai than i feel a bit uneasy. than sumore i think is joan(do u spell it dis way?) sae tad last time she came here than gt dis guy drink big gulp than the mrt ppl bring him awae than think is fine 500. than after tad i cao scared liao. so i ren dao i leave the mrt station than i drink my coke. wa lao. now i dun dare to eat n drink in the mrt liao lor. aiya, betta stop bloggin. ltr teacher scold. tata.

2006-02-26T01:26:00.000-08:00

i HATE homewrks. dey are driving me mad. im bored. deres nth to do arnd here. yawn. sian la. nth to do. now i dun even noe wad to blog abt. kao. i go slack liao. tata.

2006-02-25T01:38:00.000-08:00

im goin to type the longest blog entry ever.
todae went to sars hse de multi-purpose hall plae badminton. than is like so SIAN!!! georgina cnt go coz she wna do her homewrk than ht cnt go coz her hp bill bao. wa lao eh. than ht the no change again... how mani times muz u make me memorize ur no!!!! si ht. call her than she not at hme. than i call her hp than she nvr bring. how to contact u!!1 telepathy? maybe bah. k... let me try.... telepathy to ht: call me!!! *waits 4 thirty min like an idiot* no reply. i lame la. juz try mah. maybe will wrk. budden no reply. k. bak to the topic. than we went to plae badmin ton n v ball 4 a while. than we sian liao so we sit dwn in the hall n try to quan georgina to come. than she still dun wna cum. than we actually wna book badminton court at cc de. than is like booked 4 three daes!!! than we went wa lao eh. we went to the cc ytd b4 goin to the airport to send jiaying off. jiaying!!! muz rmb me leh. i think her flight ovr liao. shld be la. ytd is like we went to send her than coach oso gt cum send her. than we went to the airport foodcrt to find the rest. than jiaying was dere. than we giv her our farewell present. vry ex leh. than we sit dwn wait 4 dem eat finish. than jiaying hav to go le. so all of dem stop eatin halfway than dash out. than we were like dunno yet. until the last two ran out than we notice. than is like jia ying forgt to take her present. than u noe wad the last two ppl sae? dey sae," help us look after our food hor!" than dey run out le. wa, lao eh. i was like so pissed. we oso wna send her off. than she nbr take our present. so i was like super pissed lor. than we hack care than went to terminal one send jia ying off. than we took some photos. than her bro vry li hai lor. he is like gt one BIG BIG BIG grp send him off. is like dey sendin star off liddat. than we were like wow! plz compare:
the grp tad went to send jiaying off: sixteen of us
the grp tad sent her bro off: err. i think is the entire class!
than we walk to the departure gate wth the whole grp of ppl than ppl in the airport were like lookin and see why so mani ppl lor. than we wave to jiaying. janus vry cold bloded. no emotion de. nvr even like cry or anithin! than me, tracy, sars, georgina n coach went to burger king 4 our dinner. than we chat n chat until vry late at night. than coach vry nice. send us hme. thanks a lot coach!
bak to the topic. went to badminton. than we were chattin mah. than gt this small little girl lookin at us. than is like vry scary lor. than she is like vry rude to her maid. wad happen to kids nowadays??? dey are like so spoiled lor. u shud hav seen the way the liittle girl treated her maid. she called her maid stupid. can u believ it??/ hello, at least ur maid noe how to speak perfect eng rite. not like u. so broken eng. than is like we decided go playgrnd. than we sit in the tunnel dere n play truth or dare. than we plae a while than is like so sian! i was like zzz.... wad m i doin here.... so sian..... y ht nvr cum!!..... than after tad we go hme liao. than i walk hme halfway tracy call me sae she saw manda at hm,e than she is like sae shld call her cum dwn than not so sian. lol. than i went to the vending machine buy drink. i vry thirsty leh. than wna buy can de no money so buy packet de lor. than sumore not vry cold one. wa lao. than i went hme n is now typin like siao.
vry sian leh. nowadays nth to do. juz study, study n study. sian la. ht. y ur hp bill bao!!! nxt time u call me i dun ans. than i call u bak. budden.....
err. did i break my record as the super duper long entry i eva typed?

2006-02-23T00:47:00.000-08:00

alyson, im not angry wth u. tanz 4 tellin me.
i juz died ytd. leave me alone. i wna break down. my bodys here, my soul gone.

2006-02-17T17:25:00.000-08:00

nth mch to sae. gt a lot of tests this wk. oh well. ytd no trak trainin. cancelled. so i went to bugis wth alyson n took neoprints. wad fun! lol.

2006-02-12T02:01:00.000-08:00

now in chalet usin the computer in the lobby n guess wad! i m donatin blood. soooo kind of me. urgh. lyke real. stupid damn mosquitoes. itchy! damn. ytd gt npcc. lame la. its lyke.... waste my extrenely lovely sat doin crappy stuff. urgh. wth. if not can go party le. ass man. deres nth to do lor. sian la. muscles a bit pain. damn. i want my hp bak. its lyke wad the hell. my phone oso wna take. if u all spot a model 7250i wth a vry ru out of color jeans cvr, plz plz plz return to me n god bless u. i cant stand the chers in dhs except 4 ms ngao n ms lau. dey r sooo nice. dey rawks! =) mr tum how dae long onli tok n tok n tok. i tried to be attentive n listen to him but within 5 min, i gt bored n i did math stuff. add some enthusiasm in ur lesson can, mr tum? history cher. cant stand her. "history is an argument wth no end." urgh. i noe u love tad sentence vry much but plz la, dun nd to mention it lyke one billion times can? show sum creativity, sum colors. foreva same sentence. sigh. pe cher dunno/ dun care wads her name la. she is lyke wad the hell. make us hold in pumpin position in a muddy field becoz we r late. but science cher dismiss us late mah. its not lyke all the washrms r empty la. damn la. wadeva. dun care liao. geog cher. juz dun lyke. dunno y but i juz dun lyke. rs cher, SIAN la. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz. rs = lame plus bo liao. wads the point i rs la? but i kinda lyke my mentor. =) yupss. tads all. urghhhhh. testS nxt wk! not test but testS!!! i bet i will fail my la. revised my la notes le but dunno wth dey saein la. shit. die. mati. urgh....

- valentine day 4 me = lonely day

2006-02-10T05:48:00.000-08:00

sry k. thousands of sry. dun be so pissed la. sry la. nxt time i dun sae anythin. sry kk. urgh. todae. so late reach home. wth. than tomolo gt npcc trainin. WTHWTHWTHWTH!!!!~ todae math roz man. so fun. than LA i was lyke doin math hw lor. cant hlp it la. his lesson zhen de hen sian mah. science i was lyke doin li wen's birthdae crd? this whole dae nbr pay attention except 4 math n chinese. n math rawkz. ms ngao is sooooo nice. than after sch gt the commitee meetin. suppose to end at 2 than it drag n drag n drag until 2.30! dammit la. than alyson is such a sweet person to ren dao xian zai pei wo chi fan. tanks a million man! hugs n kisses to u. err. trak. dunno gt in a not la. but the trainin damn fun la. finally can run. so cool. my muscles tgt a vry gd warm-up. muz gt in trak! than a trak senior(shud be bahz) ask whether i OK a not coz my face pale. but im nt sick! =) its juz tad my complexion is vry vry vry fair. wna gt darker. but many yrs under the sun doesnt wrk. urgh. dey gt dark-tanner a not? than after tad go tm buy file n slats plus eat dinner. than wna call mum tell jhr i will be late hme than ish lyke my phone lost so muz use public phone. search frm top flr to grnd flr 4 fone. at lasst gt one but guess wd? it only available 4 phonecrd!!1 wa lao eh. tanz god i chance upon anthr one outside TM after lyke 20 min searchin 4 a phone/ erm. hello. ur mall shortage of phone leh. than makan in tm go hme. tired out. i want trak! lol. tomolo gt npcc. dun want go. dun wna dun wna dun wna!!! urgh. tomolo so early wake up. dammit. n err, wd to bring to trainin tomolo arz?

2006-02-08T02:39:00.000-08:00

juz came bak frm sch.... "like real la" zzz.... nth to do... LA so diff la. e cher juz yak n yak n yak n i dun even understand wad he tokin abt lor. =( shit la. la test sure fail de lor. sad. sobs. T.T yeah. gt trak trial on fri. can run! yeah. hen jiu mei you pao le hen bu shu fu. =) miss netball la. y dhs cnt hav netball de. so sad lor. =( but my mortal vry "guai"!!! hahar. xD

- dreams r meant to cum true but mine is shattered by u

2006-02-07T04:23:00.000-08:00

wa lao eh. damn pissed todae 4 two reasons lor. dammit. the history teacher stuk to same thing 4 dunno how long le... change e topic can!!!! nw doin homewrk. i noe my class de blogskin nt nice la. gtg do wrk le. tataz.

2006-02-03T19:04:00.000-08:00

oh shit. shit. shit n shit. i lost my phone. shit. all my data lost. fuk. shit. went to search 4 it. left e handphone pouch. e hp lost. whr gt ppl so inconsiderate de.... ass man.. at e most return me e phone la... i pay u lor... fukin ass.... oh ya. dun noe y i so unlucky. my cca is npcc.... shit. want trak. dun want uniform grp. all those stupid marching. actually want choir de but no chance gt in mah. so join trak betta than npcc. dun want to march. dun want. dun want. dun want. ahh..... ass.... so unluky. ytd ran in e mornin coz late. than fell dwn. knee pain. shit. unluky day. ytd 6 go home. sad case. than made sum fends lor. tad yoke ho vry pian tai. argh. he sit behond me lehz. than sae all e disgustin wrds. ytd try to prove to guang liang tad yoke ho shi si bian tai. than i dun think he believ lor. sigh. pathetic. unlucky dae. ass. fuk. npcc. dun want. trak. want. hp. lost. gimme ba my phone. shit.

2006-01-28T07:31:00.000-08:00

vry the long nbr post liaoz... lolz... happy cny to all of u! lolz... nw so little ppl visit mi de taggy... *sobs* i miss prps.... *sigh* i dun wna end up in npcc... shit rite? i wna go trak. but not selected. sad. so choir most likely wun gt in de laz. sad. again. than third choice i put e npcc. shit. sure end up dere de mahz. help. dun wna go dere. shit.shit.shit.

2006-01-24T05:09:00.000-08:00

sumthin struk me dumb todae... juz struk me dumb... i wun sae anithing much abt it liaoz... plz remind me if i m too mean towards the guy... coz in pri sch we(galz) used to joke arnd wth the guys n dey dun mind... sry if i offended anyone of u... real sry... i will try REAL hrd to change my habit... honest...

*witherin, awae like a nobody n noone even cares
(cried todae over sumthin, not mentioned earlier in my entry, sumthin else)
mood todae: SAD SAD SAD =(

2006-01-21T07:17:00.000-08:00

to dearest 6A:
miss all of u.... rmb the times when we scare each other? n we gt so used to it tad we r not even scared anymore... still rmb the times when we play blok catchin durin recess? *sigh* those lovely times r over... i wish i cud juz remain p6 4eva n eva.... i wish... i miss all of u! realli.... all of u... when we bully the guys(hehe), when we mess up monkey's hair..... those times were a blessin but we still hav to move on... n now we r seperated... frm p6 to sec 1... i passed by prps when i was on the bus.... i was thinkin of those happy moments we hav.... those times sittin in the parade square n chattin frm 1 to 6 plus... those times.... *sigh* gd luk in everithin u do! XD
to dearest dearest netballers:
rmb the times when we played netball... n we laughed wheneva the netball hit one og our head? n when we gt treats frm mr pham(free drinks) wheneva we won a tournament? n we burst into tears when we lost a tournament n gt kiked out of the national rounds? when we had our sch bbq n we had lots n lots of fun? when we play guess the no. n eat disgustin food(tanz to tracy,ht, georgina n sars).... when we jk n fool arnd? but now it occurs to us tad the times we had r over, we hav to move on, gt on wth our life... BUT muz rmb our netball team kkz... :)
to dearest dearest dearest ht, sars, tracy, qh, chocolate n bak row "gang":
last yr we stayed bak in sch de basketball court n play concentration? fun rite... lolz.... im lame laz... i noe... than we watch movie? n when we watch the dunno wad show wth chocolate n i put popcorn in kent's drink? when we pelted each other wth popcorns(galz vs guys) in the cinema n when we gt out of our seats, the entire seat was littered wth popcorns.... n when we went to science centre n played wth popcorns... n when hasif stuffed sars keychain dog down his shirt?(disgustin rite!?!) n wyhen we do the one minute of fame thingy n played catchin in the music rm instead? those times were fun, real fun! miss u guys/galz lots n lots... hugs n kisses!(to galz onli):s
to currently p6 netballers:
gd luk in evry thing tad u all do, espiecally netball tournament! plz... dun forgt ur seniors horz... lolz...
to evryone i noe:
hope u gt wad u wish 4 n muz rmb me horz!
to the best teachers n principal(ms lim) i can eva gt(all the chers tad teach me lorz (=):
rmb me a not? the very messy gal lorz... i mean the messiest in the entire klas! hahaz... dun wry, i will surely cum visit u all n dist u all... hahaz... im evil... :P chers, muz rmb horz, forgt me i will cry... lolz.... special tanz to ms neo, mdm su, mrs kaan, mdm su(choir one) n ms lim hui ting 4 teachin me all these yrs wth patience
- i will nvr fogt u :)

2006-01-10T02:38:00.000-08:00

today sianz laz.... ytd schlin so borin... acc dun even noe wad the hell is the teacher tokin about... than gt the sports trail... haiz.... visitin ms neo on sat... ms neo, i miss u... lolz... than fri everybody go sch visit cher than i cnt coz not free.. *sobs* dun leave me alone....

2006-01-07T04:48:00.000-08:00

ytd was the last dae of orientation... it was great fun man!!!! luv it... we gt super high tad dae... hahaz.... than i made lots of new frends.....
SCs: SIEW ENG(THE AH MENG) jkjk laz....... :X
classmates: everybody!!! espiecially emily, my leist... muackz... ( plz, im straight so dun sms me n sae u realli liest arz) ty... hahaz....... go slack liaoz... tataz

- its easy to forgiv, but hard to forgt

2006-01-05T17:37:00.001-08:00

the view
the perth farm

gtg.... another than continue... haz...

2005-12-22T04:37:00.000-08:00

now at home doin nth.... is dere sumthin to do arnd here!!!! argh.... im dyin of boredom... todae gt my postin results.... i gt in to dhs!!! yippee.... lalala...haz......... todae went fishin... no fih dez.... onli one catfish.... haz.... im bored.... bored... go slack liaoz.... tataz....

-i hav waited 4 u too long a time, n i shall let go

2005-12-08T19:53:00.000-08:00

day 2 of perth: we had breakfast at the hotel.... gt bacon... YUMMY!!! than after tad we boarded the couch to lynwood pri. the ppl dere are so kind lorz.... so frendly... their food does not taste veri nice... dey cntchoose their food de... so sad... :( after tad went 4 the sand dunes.... nice!!!! the sand dune is juz damn cool lorz.... gt one bitg fat mountain made of sand... than climb to the top n slide down on a board... cool! i wanna go again!!! haz... than after tad went to the strawberry field... picked a lot of strawberries to keep in the hotel and eat... plz... the strawberrie are super duper sweet!!! after tad went to eat at restuarant... the food dere is yummy!!! than went shoppin at hay street.... bought a roxy purse 4 onli 7.95.... so cheap!!! than went bak to the hotel... plz... i slapped jy durin my sleep... sry... paisei...
day 3: went to king's park 4 tree top walk... super borin lorz.... than went to harbour town 4 shoppin!!! yea!!! the things dere are super cheap.... than went to fremantle dere de restuarant eat fish n chips... after tad went to the weekend market 4 shoppin!!!(again) bought souvenirs... the things dere are so cheap lorz... bought a box of strawberries dere!!! than we returned to perth for dinner at restuarant....
day 4: went to encironmental centre.... their toilet is so gross!!! all th waste go down to the bin... than wait till it full tyhan change... disgustin lorz.... than we reached the farm lez... our chalet is so nice... upstairs is all bed... nice!!! than went 4 lunch dere... a lotof food lehz... than went to c the sheep bein sheared... tyhe sheep so poor thing lorz... after tad went 4 the tractor ride.... went to c the lake or sumthing like tad.... tha went go c cow the tractor suddenly jerk than me n mdm su slided down... pain siaz... than the cows all super cute lorz... than while waitin 4 the rest, i went to the trampoline dere n play... so fun... than went to c the bunnys... dey r so damn cute lorz... after td went bak to chalet than went for dinner. after tad hav campfire dere.... so called campfire laz... i luv it... than we walked bak in the dark... veri scary lehz... like gt ghost like tad... tghan after tad hazel follo me go ask teacher for blanket... than went we walk bak tad time so creepy... *shivers* went to sleep soon.
day 5: went 4 breakfast at the farm than check out.. than went to penguin island... the wind dere so strong... dere sian laz... nth one... than after tad went to nut farm... sian laz... can bring me to somewhere more interestin a not? than return to hotel lez... ywan....
day 6: we had breakfast at the hotelthan went to hay street 4 shop[pin... bought a bag, a cap n mani more.... :) than went 4 lunch at ole ole.... so expensive!!! than wentn to nut factory again!(but diff one) than went to the airport.. the plane veri stable!!! reach singapore at ard 9... than meet sars dey all... tanz 4 fetchin me... *muackzzzz*

2005-12-06T19:55:00.000-08:00

juz returned from perth last night.... miss perth.... *sobs*
day 1: went to the airport and than b4 the flight we went shopping around for ten min... nvr buy anithing laz.. than we boarded the plane... plz.... the plane horz hav to take the bus to reach dere than climb up the stairs... cnt go through the passageway... sumore SIA lehz... than hav to take the bus de.... on the plane worst siaz.... the plane slunted like hell than veri the unstable lorz.... their seat so0 cramp lorz... i want corner seat but dun hav.... sobssss. than i watched hitch and polar express on the plane.... their lunch like shit laz..... than we alighted and went to take the couch... uncle steve is the driver... he veri funni de... than we went for the bush walk... dey gt the peppermint tree and thn u go pluck one leaf n rub, gt smell of peppermint... so amazing.... than ate bbq chicken and beef.... plus the hamburger... veri nice!!!! than we went to the hotel to gt our rms.... i gt the key so i can choose my roomates.... than i pang seh amanda... so glad i did td... she was trying to bosss me around b4 we even go to our rm so i change roomates to jia ying n jing ying...(the two perverts) our rm so small n cosy... fell asleeep soon...
gtg... update another time

2005-11-28T19:24:00.000-08:00

a piece of my mind to LAMERS in my tagboard:
sum ppl are juz so lame. dey think their eng is veri gd. wadeva. i dun even wish to noe whether their eng is gd a not. well, if dey are juz so lame, dey can post all about me on their blog 4 all i care. but this is my blog, my thoughts. n wad i think about one of dem is juz NEGATIVE. i noe ur eng is veri pro laz. but there is no need to show off on my blog. none well dig ur ears, NONE of my frends are happy wth u. i noe u dun giv a DAMN about wad ppl think. but i do n i agree totally wth my frends. dere are so mani NEGATIVE remarks tad i do not wish to post on, or rather, i cant post finish.( the list will be endless, u c)
~case close~

yesterday we go the netball so fun. luvvv it. than we go mc dere de playhouse play. lame rite? but nth to do mahz. so might as well juz fool around. haz. today actually we wanna go downtown de. than in the end a lot of ppl cannot go. haiz.... *yawn* now nth to do. cant wait to go overseas. haz. hong ting so head over heels over a guy. lolz. but i suspect she bluff de. hmmm.... maybe... arghhh..... nth to around here.... go slack(AGAIN) liaoz...

-i hate myself 4 luving u

2005-11-26T20:32:00.000-08:00

yesterday go tracy chalet so fun. we go buy water balloon and play. goin to wild wild wet on tues. not veri sure shud go a not. later cannot go perth:( . my blog gt a lot of (not to be mentioned). one wrd 4 dem: SCRAM. dey go express their unhappy opiniomns on their blog laz. but this is my blog, my thoughts. cant be bothered wasting my breath on bo liao ppl. i psle results veri gd..... yeah!!! lolz.... mon gt netball at kallang.... shud be able to go ba. gop slack liaoz...

*u set the fire in my heart, n nth i can do to put it out

2005-11-21T00:17:00.000-08:00

hmmm.... nth to do so blog lorz... ms awaes lag de..... *sobs* nxt wk go perth liaoz.... yippee!!! muackzzzz....... sars sick liaoz lez.... betta be ok horz... or else i tomolo cannot watch movie... jk laz... but muz be ok kkz..... attention all p6 netballers: friendly match at cchms!! sms me if u wanna go than i tell u all the details.... thurs psle results.... veri scared lehz... hopefully can gt in to special 4 the cchms.... plzzz..... gimme gd results.... haz..... i go plae neopets lez...

- waiting 4 a dream tad will nvr cum true

2005-11-18T21:03:00.000-08:00

the one minute of fame rite, cant believe we actually lose to cynthia!!! *cough**cough* when teacher announce, all of us was choking.... unbelievable!!!! the teachers muz be blind laz..... we expect the crazy frog ppl to win lorz..... than cynthia dey all win instead!!!! *ahem* rushing to the loo liaoz...den yesterday we r supposed to sae hu we likem lorz.... than i cant believe tad joel dun like anione... veri fake lehz... muz be lorz.... than we gting our resultsnxt thurs.... veri scareeed.... cant believe it lorz.... ms neo was crying during grad dae.... all of us was like shocked.... ms neo, we will missss u too!!! later maybe i wanna go bk bbq pit 4 mon lorz.... SIAN laz... nth to do one lorz....
-it seems tad we r meant to nvr meet

2005-11-12T20:10:00.000-08:00

the one minute of shame horz, veri the bo liao lehz. later goin tm to buy clothes but i no $$ lehz... hu can sponsor me??? haz... im bored to death lorz.. than tad fuking jonathan veri the wad lorz... hai wo bei mr pham ma... hmpff.... hu ask u mouth so big. i dun like anibody so shut up kk.... stupid asshole. cant wait 4 nxt nxt wk... psle results!!! tad cl horz, cuming bak frm thailand tomolo. than we all dun noe which part of thailand he go but sl noe lorz... haz.... perrrfect couple!!! than sars cant wait 4 cln to cum bak.... hmm.... i smell luv in the air... haz... dun cum whack me horz sars....

2005-11-07T04:16:00.000-08:00

to anli: do u noe y i did this? go read ur entry on september n c wad u write about ur cousins.
juz in case u dun wanna go c 4 urself:

i m now ultra pissed..once again..it's the same fooked up group of people..my cousins...i don't understand why they must always want to us my computer when they come over? as in..they are supposed to be here to visit granny..talk to her and stuff..not get your bloody eyes stuck to my bloody computer screen..and it's not like they don't have a pc or internet access at home! and the thing is..my aunts..those kid's mothers..restricted their use of internet at home..afraid that the kids get addicted..but..hello? does it make a difference? using my pc won't get your kids addicted? at first it was the bloody playstation..they would fight over it with their bloody lives..they would even bring their own SPOILED disc and swop it with my working one!(one of them has his own at home)..now that they are sick of it..they change their bloody target to my bloody pc..initially i could resist..by simply saying that i've got my school stuff to do..but obviously they are now old enough to see for themselves that i don't exactly have serious work to do..and my dad..he would generously offer those bloody kids the chance to use com..and since those kids are so desperate..they jumped at that bloody opportunity..and i cant say anything..and if i do..not only my dad's head will blow..granny's will too..and i'll just be the one suffering..FOOK!what totally made me so unwilling to let them use the pc was something that happened last week i think..my com was not working and we were joking around when one of my aunts went 'aiyo..obviously they won't let you use the com la..surely is spoil already then they won't be usin'..and when this visitor came..i don't know who the hell she is..all i know was that she spoke really loudly..creating much disturbance to the whole family..maybe the whole block..my dad once again offered the visitor's kid the pc! like my house is some LAN shop or something..then my aunt went 'forget it la..they won't let u use..even my kids come also don't get to use' wtf!yes..i am selfish..so? what's her problem..since you jolly well know i would never allow your destructive kids use the com..why not tell them and get it into their heads this bloody fact..and these kids don't have the sense of shame..i've already showed my unwilling attitude..and they ignored it.. argh..i don't have a problem with them coming over..but hello? this is my house and these are my stuff..just show some respect can? i am totally pissed with them..once..one of those cousins of mine looked at my chemistry stuff and went 'wah..so easy'..he's just a sec 2 kid who's failing his stuff and he had the cheek to say that? then..they would dig out the basketball,soccer ball, badminton rackets..whatever they can find..use them..spoil them if it's within their abilities..dump it somewhere they thought we would be blind enough to not see it..and leave for home..and me and my sis would have to clear up the mess..hey..i am not your maid can?
yesterday i go bugis wth tracy n it was like sooo the nice laz... than todae the dun noe wad talk gt feedback form ma, so i tick all disagree lorz coz the talk is like so god damn boring can? cant wait 4 tomolo ho beach!!! than later go swimming... haz....

2005-11-03T18:41:00.000-08:00

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2005-11-01T21:58:00.000-08:00

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2005-11-01T21:45:00.000-08:00

todae at sch so the funni lorz.... we plae bridge rite, than i not veri clear on the bid prt.... haz... than i go bully qh... bleahz..... i started to watch the stsirway to heaven... so sad lor the show.... wanna cry liaoz... *sobs* the girl so poor thing laz.......

*u noe tad i can nvr be alright again, so y do this to me?
- i will be waiting 4 the impossible to happen

2005-10-29T21:32:00.000-07:00

yesterday go mi ahma house... so sianz... than mi cousins awaes tease me.... hmff.... than went to the bugis wth mi frend yes... damn fun lorz... but we go dere a while onli than go home le... lolz.... yippee!!! i bought the ms de cashcard... i buy tyhe kitty... so cute lorz... lolz... i noe i toking crap laz....

*back to "normal"

2005-10-27T19:44:00.000-07:00

i now at com lab..... so sianz.... now create post lor.... the teacher sae cannotflame wadeva crap.... cant wait to go home plae ms... haiz... todae catching damn cool lor.... lolz....

*my tears hav been wasted by u
-i will be waiting

2005-10-26T02:40:00.000-07:00

todae is so the malu. i plae ms than wanna do pq. than we wait wad. than i wanna throw awae my sleepywood map than accidentally clik twice than i go sleepywood. i used up my return scroll to kerning city than i kena expelled. wa. i so nooby. todae damn funni lor. at eli house we tickle here tickle dere( me, sars, eli n qh) than we luv like siao ren. hahaz.

*i look like im ok but im not

2005-10-24T22:22:00.000-07:00

i giv up. i giv up being the "gd" person, i giv up bein nice. i wanna giv my life up. things hav nvr gt betta, 4 the feelings i once felt can nvr cum back. i miss u. yes, i do. but i dun think things can be rite again.

*do u noe tad my darkness is painted by u?

2005-10-24T05:01:00.000-07:00

everithing is fading awae. the happiness i once felt soon become non-existent to me. i feel like a total wreck. noone to sav me n it is alreadi too late.

* i wish i could scream

2005-10-23T00:08:00.000-07:00

we cant go back to the past,
u hav already broken my heart of glass.
things can nvr be the same again,
n tad cause me pain.
i cant pretend tad nth had happenned,
tad will onli make me more saddened.
my times wth u will nvr fade,
for the happiness i felt was so great.
we soon were frends once more,
but the scar i bore,
can nvr be erased,
n i feel veri out of place.
if onli tad fateful day had nvr existed,
our frendship will be able to withstand the storm,
but now i can nvr feel the warmth,
for my body is here,
but my soul is gone.

*wad's done cannot be undone

2005-10-20T23:17:00.000-07:00

i noe its time to let go. to let u go, to let the past fade awae. it hurts. do u noe it hurts? do u noe my world is filled wth darkness? do u noe tad u r painting my darkness? do u noe my world is falling apart? n most important of u all, do u care? n let mi tell u, no u dun care. u dun care u dun u dun. u think i m goin to break down, think twice. i hav learnt, tads how life should bi. u want mi to break down, than all the more i shouldnt. i think i should tank u instead, 4 telling mi tad best frends cannot bi trusted, 4 making mi strong, 4 making me lose my soul. tank u veri much n i will NVR forgt ur present to mi. yup, i will nvr forgt. i long 4 u to call mi n tell mi tad everithing will be alright, but i noe it will nvr happen. im used to it. noone to lean on, its alright. noone to lend mi a shoulder when im down, its alright. noone to tell my secrets to, its alright. noone to share my happy moments, its alright. yes, its alright. coz my bodys here, my soul lost. n tanz 4 making this happen. tanz.

* im fading awae

2005-10-19T03:28:00.000-07:00

everithing is happening too fast, yes, too fast 4 me to fully understand wad is goin on. i m slowly recovering frm my fall, slowly facing reality. the hard, cold reality. i will forgt wad hav happened, but i will nvr forgt the times i had wth u. those glorious, wonderful times. i noe i will nvr be able to go back to the past, wad's gone hav to be gone. i hav to face the truth tad u r nvr goin to be my frend animore but i juz dun understand one thing. wad hav i done wrong? plz gimme an ans n let my soul rest in peace.

*a fall is nth much, but the scar left is something

2005-10-17T06:49:00.000-07:00

i wish things were right again. i wish u were mine, i wish i was fine. i wish i hav nvr been sad, i wish life arent tad bad. i wish i would be happy, i wish i would not be lonely. i wish.

* ~if only~

2005-10-15T22:50:00.000-07:00

i went to orchard todae. at least i forgt wad is happening around me. at least i dun cry. a part of me still yearns 4 u to be my frend again, even though i noe tad it is impossible. i wish tad life can go back again, i can be happi again. i wish i hav nvr met a girl called amanda b4, life's miserable tanz to her.

*life's nvr the same again

2005-10-13T23:14:00.000-07:00

i cried again todae. i m juz like a piece of junk. todae saw dey all at the playground than i juz break down again. i noe im useless. i need sumone to lean on but dere is noone to do so. y muz this happen to me??? i wish tad the storm will be over n it will be sunny again.

*plz make my wish cum true

2005-10-12T22:21:00.000-07:00

i cried todae. dun noe wad's wrong. my world is juz falling apart tanz to sumone.i juz cant take it any more. i juz break down.can we plz let this matter blow over? i mean ever since tad dae, my world is juz tumbling down. i hav nvr felt so sad b4.

*i wish i could go back to the beginning

2005-10-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

things r better now.. plz. dun be angri kk. i realli hope tad i will gt gd results 4 psle. should i go anglican??? or reject the offer??? haiz. goin park later. bb.

-how could this happen to mi???

crying

2005-10-11T05:28:00.000-07:00

sry. manda cum basketball court i noe u all veri the angri wth me. but i dun noe tad manda is goin. she said tad she hav check up 4 the back so she is not goin. but she was juz rite under the block when she called me n tell me she is cuming. sorri ok... plz dun be angri. plz. than the four of us ran awae fm u all coz i realli dun noe wad to do. i hav to go wth them to book bbq pit as onli i noe the wae. so we ran awae. n sumore, manda said tad she will tell her dad if u all continue throwing u noe wad at her. sry... veri the sry... plz dun bi angri.

*i wish 4 our frendship to be everlasting

psle over le...

2005-10-11T01:26:00.000-07:00

can u believe it??? TAD ******* MANDA IS CUMING MI HOUSE!!! WAD THE HELL!!! SHE GO DIE LAR. IF NOT 4 SARS, I THAN TELL HER DUN CUM LOR. SHE SO ******* LAR. she think she queen la. i dun care if she read this lor. i dun even giv a damn. she is foreva insulting ppl lor. nvr one dae wun keep her mouth shut. she is realli veri fukingly idiotic. she cum le. bb.

wow! one more subject!!!!

2005-10-09T19:55:00.000-07:00

cei.. science actually veri the easy lor. onli the draw graph one i dun noe a single thing. :) i go learn my hmt le.

-i wish u were mine

goin bonkers

2005-10-08T11:35:00.000-07:00

wa... everidae also study. goin bonkers le. i wish i wish science will not be diff tomolo. plz. my mum scold me le. post onli ma also like tad. wa. why mother nature so angri? got tsunami, hurricane n now earthquake??? i think part of the reason is cause man is polluting the environment. hopefully, the scientists can cum out wth a way to create electricity without polluting the environment. hopefully. sigh...

- i feel out of place

science so diff!!

2005-10-07T21:16:00.000-07:00

i learnt my science so diff lor. dun noe wad the hell r they toking about. like wad two balls dropped at diff height, which one reach the ground first. hiya, my gravity veri lousy. science hurri up over lehz. aniwae, onli two more subjects to go! yippee!!!!

- my heart is ever so fragile, foreva broken by u

u think u veri smart izzit?

2005-10-06T23:01:00.000-07:00

u think u veri smart by deleting the post izzit. haz. i knew tad all along. so i copied it n saved it. u can't run awae. i m not as stupid as u think. haz. so wad if u veri the clever? but u gt attitude prob so it doesn't make a diff. dun wanna tok about u. waste my time onli.
wa.... chinese sooo easy. but paper 1 quite diff. i write until no time to check. wa. hopefully science will not be veri diff. plz plz plz plz dun make science diff coz i veri lousy at it la. todae actually wanna go playground play one. but noone wanna go. *sob* todae is my relax dae. than i study, study, study 4 the weekend. i go plae game le. bb.

- i dun think wishes can realli cum true. do u?

heh!

2005-10-05T22:44:00.000-07:00

heh. u bloody asshole cousin. u gt this knocked into ur head. gt the facts rite! u think ur com is made of gold. think again u bloody hell. we not so the selfish. n gt the facts rite. u r the one tad is demanding. cum my house muz let u use com. so betta gt this rite u bloody freak. n didn't ur teacher teach u to be nice to guests? so u gt this drilled into ur head. be nice. u think i can stand seeing ur bloody sulky face like we wanna use a hammer n spoil ur com? if not to visit granny, i will NVR (gt ur ears digged), NVR go to ur house. n y, u also betta not cum my house n demand to use the com. coz this is pay back. i dun care wadeva suking hell u complain to whoeva but i will NVR let u be sooo the god damn demanding. so gt the facts rite, n go n learn how to be nice. u bloody freak. ur house is not tad fantastic at all. i rather be at home. y, the tv, playstation, com , everi single thing tad i can do to spend the time is snatched by u guys. n let me rot awae? wun even let me spend a single moment n use ur com. imagine u urself sitting on the sofa, doin nth. excuse me, when will u ever stop being so demanding? ur teacher nvr teach u izzit. u think ppl wanna cum ur house? u crazy izzit. ur house also nth one. i rather go study lor. so u gt this rite. stop posting insulting posts on ur blog like u r rite n WE r wrong. gt this rite man. n SHUT UP. yep, shut up. i dun care if u r reading this post but hear me will ya. SHUT UP n stop complaining about others as u r not tad gd urself. i realli dun care if ur eyes pop out when u read this as u may think tad i m an easy to bully cousin? i want the whole wide world to noe how the hell u treat others. n SHUT UP! i m veri pissed. ( not goin to sae nameslike sum bloody freak)

sobs

2005-10-05T20:10:00.000-07:00

boo hoo. math VERI VERI VERI VERI diff. wa. dun noe how to do last ques n sum in bklet a. wa. nvr CHECK!!! coz no time la. dun whack my head coz my brain overwrked le. u hit worst la. y math so diff. hopefully, i gt a. plz plz plz plz plz gimme A!!!!!!! plz. i go study 4 the chinese le. may god bless me!

-mustering up the courage to say tad i luv u

cheers! eng psle over.

2005-10-05T02:01:00.000-07:00

wa lao. eng psle so easy. but i alreadi gt one wrong. :( but aniwae, cheers! 4 more subjects onli!!! i go study ler. bb.

-i wish, i wish i can forgt u

...

2005-10-03T23:31:00.000-07:00

todae gt sumone veri the fake la. act as imposter. whre gt sumone so lame.

- can wishes cum true?

crazy me...

2005-10-02T21:31:00.000-07:00

todae i nvr go sch coz i sick. block nose la. cannot smell anything.than morning go see the doc. wa lao. wait 4 one hour for registration onli kk. than i freezing like in antartica(spelling gt wrong?). nvr bring my the jacket coz washing. now fever lor. thank u hor stupid clinic de aircon. than the si bei siao me go packet my lunch at 9??? dun faint lar. i tell u i siao siao de. than now my lunch veri the cold. u might be thinking heat it up rite?but i environmental friendly lar. sav electricity. no la. actually coz i lazy. dun whack my head hor. i MUZ be ok. coz psle no make-up la. but y har? veri stupid rite. coz if sumone veri veri the sick still hav to take exam but the brain of course wun wrk properly one wad. hiya. stupid way of psle.

- u r the one tad i held close, but also the one tad hurt me the most.
penning off,
the retarded me :)

2005-10-02T02:09:00.000-07:00

wa.. todae dun feel so gd... sore throat juz ok. now cold. *sob* i think i used up 3 boxes of tissue. i realli dun feel gd. i hope i gt well quick coz psle soon.nowoone hand clutching tissue, doing wrk. how i wish the god damn psle hurri up over. coz i veri the stress. no time to de-stress. wad the hell m i saeing? i think mi brain overwrked n i hav gone bonkers. block no0se now. boo hoo. when can i gt well?!? i go study le.

-ni hui bu hui shi wo de wang zi?

2005-09-29T23:48:00.000-07:00

urgh.... todae children dae!!! hahaz... teacher giv present than we all shout we luv her! than the guys in class all puke. lol... wa lao.. this yr last yr than go sec sch le... *sob* i will miss teacher man... after sch i go plae the netball. so shiok. than coach buy ice-cream ask me go take than i nvr take. maybe coach will kill me. mdm su giv the present soooo nice. but i prefer the pink n white vondutch keychain. nvm la. gtg le. bb.

- i suddenly realised how much i missed u.

2005-09-29T03:14:00.000-07:00

wa lao.. dun noe wad's wrong wth my the post... veri the funni... todae study.. foreva study.. i go eat dinner liaoz.. bb.

yea

2005-09-25T03:13:00.000-07:00

created my new blogskin! yippee!!!! so happi.... now studying. byee... rejoice!!!

-i wish tad i can forget u.